(Real)ationship

The title is inspired from parody videos of relationship by Elizabeth Koshy - or Liza Koshy 

... and her boyfriend of course - David Dobrik ;)

I just found them out like, yesterday, coincidentally. They are both Viners, and reaching 20 years old THIS YEAR! So young yet so much fame... *I'm almost 21, and just sitting here like a potato*

Anyway, as the title suggested, this post is kinda ranting on relationship. Well, today I had very little conversation with my boyfriend. And it was just through Whatsapp, and nothing more. Unless when he told me that the 1 week ahead he will be busy and we need to have appointment to meet or else we would not meet at all. I LITERALLY freaked out, called him like 3 times before he picked the phone. It turned out that he didn't mean like what I have said in previous sentence, more likely misunderstanding from the use of misleading Indonesian terms -__- This makes me sure that I need to review my Indonesian. To my fellow Indonesians out there, do you realize that the younger generation nowadays could not write a sentence without a single mistake? A take on Bahasa Indonesia will be nice I guess I'm considering it ^^

Back to topic. As the first daughter and child I'm used to be responsible for the act of my younger sister and I. I learn to be more independent and such. However, after I entered relationship, I feel like becoming into needy woman; I cling too much sometimes and I know it bothers him but I feel like it is the right thing. I always want him to just be there for me, even though no words coming from his mouth, I feel better c:

These weeks become his busiest weeks though during his 3rd year of studying. *he is one year lower batch than me; I'm 2012 and he is 2013: I should probably explained this next time* He had told me not once or twice but more than quadruple times - I guess? - about being a supportive partner means that you should have high level of tolerance and understanding. Since I'm the first child, I'm used to have everything done fast; whether the result is good or not. And I often blame him if he didn't finish early on whatever tasks he had because he is so perfectionist *I disliked the traits but I do like the results of perfectionist's work though :p* The point is, I don't have enough level of both things he told me and I feel like he was asking too much. But then, I realized that as a girl, I always want my man to just BE THERE, like I said before. Thus, it brought me to rethink, have I been there for him too? Do I often forget what he needs as he filled my needs? So, I think, even though it is hard for me to push down my ego for a bit, I also need to just be there for him, perhaps a good listener, and just give enough amount of attention without pushing him too hard ( , ,) Though I want to continue keep in contact with him before I entered my clinical rotation U.U

One thing is I always wanted him to just talk to me when he has something to say. Nonetheless, I learn that apparently, men would not just talk about their problem unless it's IMPORTANT or SIGNIFICANT; unlike women. WE GOSSIP EVERYTHING!

I have learned to ask possible problems that he might face, but sometimes it doesn't really work because he didn't answer in complete full story leaving me bothered and ended up fighting again :( So, I hope I could be more patience, but I wish he would also just see me when there is - or are - problems in life. Even though I could not solve them, I might just be there for him and be help him to regain his self-confidence or whatever boosts he needs :D

Keyword for today's post - and for relationship - is "BE THERE" no matter what has happened. I'm sure even though it's not much, it will encourage your partner to do whatever they have ;) See you around, and good luck in your relationship for people who have it, and prepare yourself to these things for people who are still single ^^ Remember, being in relationship is not as fun as you think, being single is also a good thing for you to learn about yourself before knowing others.

I don't think it would be love advice, I should just ended the post right now ('  '! )

So, baaaaiii... xo